i'm back to blog again.. haha i guess stuff has been improving, i suppose i have better control over myself now alr but i'm still confused over some stuff.. aiya i shall see wad the doc says tmr then.
anw i just had a chat with her after so long, it was a nice feeling again, we crapped from wad ahzi will perform this sat, to jay being my fren who sms me a few days ago, to i will be the lead actress for jay's movie 2 years later cos he's waiting for me to grad then he will film a movie with me, to him telling me that he's happy abt the results of secret cos i went to watch it.. oh it was pure crap, but she could carry on with me.. haha!
then there was me saying it was so diff to be able to talk to her, to nv see her for so long, then to her working in the casino when she quits her current job to bribing her to tell me wad special thing ahzi will perform this sat and we ended our conver with ya ya ya ya s cos i was saying i look nice and she said cos i look cute and pretty.. haha!
i could say that i could chat well with her and we do get along well, but u know, some stuff just makes me ponder alot and make me feel if i shld talk to her not.. what i can say is that u wun feel much if u are not the victim, but u'll get affected by that victim..
aiya, this is confusing, but nvm i suppose things will go its way eventually.
and i suppose history cant repeat itself, cos wads lost is alr lost, mayb its time to let it go, but it feels that wads lost seems to be the one for me.
ok, dun dwell on it alr, be well.
are u back? come back fast yea? i miss u alot, and i guess they do miss u as well, and only i can find u back. thats wad queen told me(:
its gonna be a crazy sat!! and a confusing fri ..
